Roller coaster ride..
I've been meaning to post for a while now but just couldn't get myself around to doing it. The past 4-5 weeks have been an emotional roller coaster for me – in love, life, work and everything in between. They say you can't experience the high emotions without experiencing the lowest of the lows (or something like that..). I guess I've pretty much been through those ups and downs during this time.

I don't recall, as far as my memory will allow me to, having been in such a happy-high emotional state like the moment I was in at the beginning of last month, only to have it dramatically turn upside down a couple of weeks later. For me, it's not an everyday occurrence to be in that situation and I figure I won’t put myself out there again to only be cut down by one big blow. For now anyway. Although you never know, like this time, things just happen so quickly without you knowing and it’s a feeling you can't ignore. Doubt I'd forget the moment even if I said I would.

To make this roller coaster ride even worse is the news I received this morning that my grandfather had passed away. I just hope it was pain free even though the drugs weren't doing him any good and the doctors didn't know what was wrong with him. I probably should've fought harder to get the leave intended for two weeks ago that I talked to my manager about taking off at the beginning of October but wasn't able to due to various reasons. In hindsight, that would have been the best time to visit him in HK as he was out of hospital before his readmission and his health took a turn for the worse.

These situations, even though you're expecting it to happen and mentally prepared for it, still hits you hard. I've recovered from the news but I doubt that will stay long. Until I go overseas and face the reality will it only hit home.
May you rest in peace.

Labels: death, life